Oh, Illya-chan... [She is trying very hard not to vent her worries. Yes, Illya is honestly asking, and there's probably a good reason for that. But not only has Illya not really done anything to deserve Lisa opening the floodgates, it's also... she just would feel bad. Illya looks up to her and that would destroy her, or if nothing else her image of Lisa. She... doesn't want that.

Does that make her a bad person? It kind of does, doesn't it? That twinge of shame joins the arrows as a pan falling on her head. So... maybe just a little bit of an answer to the question, as she also laments that her resolution to be nicer to herself lasted five minutes.]

I'm... not sure. There are a lot of Dreamers I respect! I would trust any of them to have my back. But I... don't know if I'm in that group for anyone. I'm not very good, and I don't really feel like I'm getting better. I don't know if I've earned that respect, you know? Is it enough to be something, even if you can't do it very well?

[...It's an oversimplification, but it's close enough that it hurts her heart to say aloud.]